New script, new headache

I am going out of my mind writing this new script. I've pretty much got the story done, but I am still trying to include more plot twists here and there. So far, I've been unsuccessful.

I need a break, but if I do that, my mind will start thinking of other things. People. Her. Argh. I hate this feeling.

Gaming doesn't help much; it's a huge mental drain. Exercising wears me down physically, plus I've exercised way too much this week anyway. By right, I should be able to rest easily. Nope, doesn't happen. I feel like there's a surge of adrenaline pumping in my heart, yet I can't do anything about it.

From wikipedia:
"Recent studies in neuroscience have indicated that as people fall in love, the brain consistently releases a certain set of chemicals, including dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin, which act similar to amphetamines, stimulating the brain's pleasure center and leading to side-effects such as an increased heart rate, loss of appetite and sleep, and an intense feeling of excitement. Research has indicated that this stage generally lasts from one and a half to three years."

Increased heart rate: check.
Loss of appetite: check.
Loss of sleep: check.

Please tell me I'm not in love. Someone slap me. Pinch me. Torture me. Whatever. I need a good distraction.

She Will Be Loved

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

- Maroon 5

Every time I'm with her, that song plays in my mind. Every time I hold her in my arms, that song plays in my mind. Every time I hear the song, I think of the scene Rachel McAdams and Ryan Gosling reenacted at the 2005 MTV Movie Awards from the movie "The Notebook" . Every time that happens, I would lift her up and cradle her in front of me. It's a vicious cycle.

Found it:


I know I tend to get so insecure; doesn't matter anymore.

P.S. Are mixed tapes/cds out of fashion?

Melancholy

I am bored with my life. I don't know what else to do. As time goes by, I feel my soul drifting away. I can't sleep, I won't eat, but this vassal still moves like clockwork.

The other one is slowly taking over, screaming to be released. We can only hold him for so long, but alas, we can hold him no longer. He will resurface and he will pass judgment to those he sees fit.

However, it is for the better, as he is more capable of handling this vassal right now. Masrey has succumb to love, and Dex has been locked away for a long time.

All we can do now is pray that he will be merciful, for he has only one weakness, and she is nowhere near. She holds the key to release Dex, and she can resurrect Masrey.

Be prepared.

The One

The symptoms: Lack of sleep. Loss of appetite. The longing feeling.

The cause: The girl who stole my heart, but gave me hers in return.

The solution: She's the one.

I wonder if it's true. It can't be; it's too soon.

Sofa King

Sofa King great.
Sofa King comfortable.
Sofa King cheap.

You gotta love SNL. :)

Scriptwriting

I had written a script, as usual, but this time, no dialogs were involved. So, I showed it to this experienced director, and he gave PLENTY of comments. Most importantly, he told me to write "the four": story, treatment, character biography and step outline. By doing this I got deeper into my script, realizing all the characters and roles they play, and even imagining every single scene in detail.

The original script HAD to be rewritten. It was so incomplete; it was so dead. "The four" were so powerful and detailed, it made the script look like an excuse of a pathetic writer. Now, my script is better, but I still believe there is room for improvement.

So I showed "the four" to a friend of mine who happens to be a scriptwriter/producer. Her comments were very constructive, and made me realize the missing ingredients I needed to make my script a solid one.

I learned so much. I finally understand why I need to write them. Without those, a script is just a collection of words, making little sense, especially if the script itself is bad. I had my first experience writing "the four" today.

Quote Of The Day

(Dex to Jarod): What kind of director is this?

Jarod had his directorial debut on Sunday. He should stick to being a producer. lol

Insomniac

I am now officially an insomniac.

For the past few days, I find it difficult to sleep for more than 3 hours at one go, except for one fateful morning on Sunday. Other than that, it's an hour here and there. Never in my life have I had this problem, unless of course I forced myself. I usually have problems sleeping at night, but never duration. Now, it's duration, regardless of when.

I can attribute this insomnia to my change in daily routine. Since early last week, I started exercising. Man, I suck at it. I could only go 15 minutes tops on the cycling machine, compared to an hour several years ago. Any longer and I'll probably get run over by the machine somehow. Working at home must've caused this shitty problem.

Anyway, the real me has returned. The one that has been buried since I was 14. The snake returns with a mission. No more facades, no more double lives, no more secret identities. There is only one.

How Sex Starts

The wonders of chain letters. I just found this one funny. lol

a smile leads to a laugh

...a laugh leads to a high 5
...a high 5 leads to a hug
...a hug leads to a kiss
...a kiss leads 2 makeout
...a makeout leads 2 finger
...a finger leads to a hand
...a hand leads to a lick
...a lick leads to a suck
...a suck leads 2 a .........

So tell me how many people are you gonna smile at after you heard this cuz sex is like math.

...u add the bed
...subtract the clothes
...divide the legs
...leave your solution
...and pray you dont multiply!

post this right after u read it, something good will happen at 2:25 tomorrow.

Get ready for the biggest shock in your life!!

Whoever breaks this chain will be cursed w/ relationship problems 4-10 years.

If you post this in 15 mins, your safe.

Something good will happen tonight at 1:11a.m.

REPOST THIS AS "How Sex Starts"

Quote Of The Day

"I'd cut your balls just to kiss her (Carrie Underwood) legs" - Me.

You'd feel the same way if you watched her performance on Saturday Night Live on March 24th. She has those proverbial "legs that go up to heaven"; legs that women dream of having and men would kill to caress.

She's already a great singer, no doubt, but that night, all I did was focus on her legs. Legs, legs, legs. Oh, and that ultra-mini-skirt she was wearing.

Took me a week to stop fantasizing about them legs. lol

The Five

The Bitch, The Whore, The Fucker, The Bastard and The Slut.

Awkward silence.